Surrendering

 I feel like I've been trying to control every situation that comes my way lately. Well there's nothing wrong with it if controlling in a positive way but when you already find yourself, almost desperate because some things are not going your way the way you want them, I have to put myself in a "halt!". 

Calm. I need to practice calm over and again until it becomes a part of my system. "But I'm only human," my alter-ego would say. No. I must learn to say no when it comes to challenging my mental health. I need surrendering. And then practice to be here. Just be present. 

You know when I'm trying to push hard a situation or a goal, the more it's elusive. But when I learn to slow down, with less expectations, and let the force of nature come by naturally. Then, I could say, it's for me. My goal will find its way to me. Sometimes, after taking the risk and nothing transpires, the only way is to surrender but still believe that one day, it'll happen. 

So , help me , God.