lunedì 8 gennaio 2018

A homecoming

Coming home ,after almost four years in a foreign land, is a feeling that I never thought I would experience in all my life. And I couldn't find words to define that feeling. There's just one thing I'm certain, I miss people...people who "are"part of me and perhaps even those who "were" part of me. But meeting each of them in this homecoming is not my main objective. I have to be home for my family, for my sick father. Taking care of our ageing parents is part of our values as Filipinos, even if we have already built a life and a family of our own apart from them, and I'm proud that we have that kind of value.

So much have changed in the place I used to call my home. I must  say "used to call" because I "wanted" to accept the idea that I have already found my second home as a married woman...and they are my husband and his family, and that I now belong to them. As long as I have not accepted that idea, I will always feel homesickness within me and it's a heavy feeling. It's my prayer.

Travelling for the very first time outside my country, I had very less anticipation about how my life would be like. I only thought about being with my husband and asked God the courage to face what awaits in this marriage. In fact, I never thought about the adjustments of culture, of language,of food, or of people in general.  People think I'm lucky...that every woman who married another race is lucky because she has all the good opportunities that lie ahead. When we post pictures of our travels, I see how "some, not all" find our lives only filled with fun and comfort. But they have no idea what's behind those smiles. So often, travel is just a compensation and reward to self , in a place where at times you feel like you have no one else to depend but yourself and your faith in God alone. People will only understand that feeling once they experience it. But of course I'm lucky! I'm lucky because my husband taught me a lot about life, because of him, I "try" to be seeker of truth and not of things. We don't have a perfect marriage but we have God in between to keep us going, and it matters a lot.

Upon my arrival at the Davao Int'l Airport, I felt strange. Seemed like I have become a totally different person. My understanding around me went deeper and my realizations just seemed to flow like river that I hardly contain them. I remember how my sister joked at me when she picked me at the airport, " Abi nako makakita nako'g mestiza na taba, mao man diay gihapon ka!"(heheh!). And I just laughed at the idea.

The holiday rush hasn't changed at all. And I found myself too preoccupied about what to give to people I love and forget about what's more important --my coming home, my presence to them. Sometimes, I would stop and think, "If I don't have things to offer or cannot give at all, would my homecoming still matter to them?". You know when the society tells you who should be, instead of who you are supposed to be. However, I understand the idea because it has become a mentality that is hard to change but "must be changed". 

My husband gave me two months vacation and in two weeks time, I'll be travelling back to him.  How time really flies! A part of me still wanted to stay, but a part of me is reminding me of my marriage, (hahah!). I swear, my heart was so heavy when I parted with my husband at the airport. You know that feeling when the person has become your life and for the first time in years,  you have to part ways for a while. And then I think a lot about the house, would he still manage to do all things by himself, would he be eating right after a tiring work.. and all other stuff.

There's just one thing I wanted to say from all of this amazing experience, While we firmly believe that "there is no place like home", we also have to firmly accept the idea that "a home can be possibly found anywhere you go, it's just how we define and feel it." And so it's true that you will never discover your inner strength unless, you find yourself in a zone that is not of your own comfort. Franklin Roosevelt said and I quote, "Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the assessment that something else is more important than fear." That is my note to self. :)

Have a truly blessed 2018 to all!

lunedì 9 ottobre 2017

A Trail


We went on a trail in the forest where many small waterfalls can be found. I was with my husband and in-laws. I wish to enjoy this time before the greening season turns to yellow and dry as cold season is here. 

On our first trail, we found this  sweet cat along the riverside...seems like the cat is used to people, never elusive. 


And I just want to savor this view...

 along our long walk, found these cylclamens and there were lots of them along the banks..Oh, I just love flowers.

We were already tired and could not finish visiting what's in our map because it's a big forest park so ended here...while kids enjoy this swing, we got curious too and so this is not only for young ones but even for adults. I, my husband, and brother-in-law tried the swing and we had fun. You know that child in all of us is awaken. :)

These last two photos are the ways along our trail. The greening around will simply make you fall in love with mother nature time and again.


And as the season change, we just have to be thankful for each moment. Everyday is a blessing.

Have a blessed week ahead fellow bloggers! :)

lunedì 18 settembre 2017

Lago di Iseo

Lago di Iseo (Lake Iseo) is located in the northern part of Italy. One of the best features that I keep falling in love with in this country: their lakes. 

Well, what else should I say, the photos I got here said it all. :)

This first one is my favorite shot..ah! that "heart" I discovered. 
Love..what people need, what we all live for.



I hope you'll keep enjoying the view here.
Sharing this, I feel like we walk together.
Have a wonderful week ahead! :)

giovedì 25 maggio 2017

Morning walk...

 "The earth laughs in flowers"- R.W. Emerson

Had my short morning walk today while hubby is at work. This one is the small park nearby where flowers just lavishly bloom. I couldn't help but admire them while taking a short stop and a good sit.


 I actually have no idea what's the name of this kind of flower. I am not good with flower names..heheh!So often, I ask my husband when we're together during the walk. Perhaps some of my visitors here know its name..I would be glad to know.  :-)





Today, I'm in one with nature...and I just feel like enjoying such gift and beauty.

venerdì 19 maggio 2017

Modernity

I don't recall anymore when was the last time I wrote. But that small talk I had with my student yesterday is still clouding on me. Along our conversation, I asked : "What was your best childhood memory?" A common question that we all have heard  time and again. He said, "The best memory I had was being simply happy even if I don't have everything." And I said, "That's right, I agree with you!" And then he added, " Now that I am a man, there are times when I am not happy". I remember he told me that he just bought a new house. 

Modernization is good. In this present time, we can say that people's lives have really improved. Buying branded things, eating in expensive restaurants, going places, travelling, all these are no longer about status quo and it doesn't matter what you do for a living. We simply want to taste and enjoy things as they are and we don't have to wait for the morrows to feel them, to experience them. In this present time, we have learned to work even harder to achieve our goals. And it's ok. 

But you see, while there are positive things brought about by modernity, I'm also afraid how far it may lead us, and how far it may affect our young ones. I want to touch the idea of satisfaction, of contentment, of simplicity, and of not weighing happiness through material desires. Yes, we sieze the day, but just how much of us really siezed the day just right, without losing our self for the world to see. Sounds, idealistic? No, I'm just talking about never feeling down when you can never be another else but your self. Envy, ego, pride...these must never be reasons for you to reach a certain dream. 

You can work hard, enjoy the fruit of your labor, and be totally happy without a show, and just be the person that you are. :-)

Have a blessed weekend! Alla prossima!:)

martedì 18 aprile 2017

Spring!

We went to one of the biggest parks in another city, about an hour drive and here's what we got!
Everything is still all about tulips since the roses are not yet in bloom. Tulips here come in variety. I'm sorry to spoil you here with flowers but they are such a joy to look at. :)














 These yellow ones are Narcissus..the only bulb flower I took that differs while the others are all tulips.



Last spring, I was able to grow tulips from my own pot but sadly this year, I wasn't able to keep them and grow. They just sprout with leaves but didn't flower at all. I don't know what happened but maybe I wasn't able to tend them well. I guess it's really true that you should have a "green thumb" (I feel i don't have..:) and that makes you very good in growing plants or flowers.

Well anyway, I hope you'll enjoy the view here. :)
Have a blessed Easter and a wonderful spring period everyone!